I learned to love you from afar. To watch your retreating back without shedding a tear. I learned to long for you from a distance, repressing the urge to chase madly after you.
Loving you made me weak before it could make me strong… it hurt me before it could heal me…and it broke me before it could make me whole.
I learned to love you without expectation – taking only what you were willing to give and offering only what you were willing to accept.
I have loved you in a language of goodbyes, through seasons of absence and the constant shadows of one farewell after another.
I have loved you defiantly – across vast spaces and time zones. I have loved you despite the wrongness of what felt right.
I have loved you through months of yawning silences and through sleep-deprived nights of Skype-calls…
I have loved you too long and too hard. I have loved you without making the effort to do so… and without you having to put in any hours to earn it.
But you are chained to the wind and where the wind goes – you will follow. I am chained to my dreams – and where they drive me I will go.
We are but two ships passing each other on the vast ocean of life… may you find a safe harbor in stormy seas and perchance we may sail on the same waters again.
But for now – farewell my love. As you would put it, “it’s been real”.
And as I would put it, “may you find what you seek”.